Tonight's the night

So tonight's the night. Write it down in the baby book. No more up every hour. No more feedings all night long. I can't do it anymore, I have been preparing myself for this day awhile now. Reading the books about letting a baby 'cry it out'.
I wanted to make sure I knew exactly how long to wait, how many times to go back in, everything because this Is my chance to do it the week before Josh comes home. As Kales 6 months now and the doctor gave me the go ahead today at his check up.

The night began just like normal, bath time, stories to follow and a little playtime before Kale drifted off to sleep. ( that's never the hard part, it comes about an hour and half later when Kale wakes up, starting a trend ranging from every hour to every other hour ).
It happens right in the middle of American Idol, at first I don't hear it, I just see the red light flicker on the monitor and my heart sinks. 169 nights I have done this alone, heard the first cry and I know I'm in for a long night. Wishing I could just snap my fingers and be able to crawl into bed and drift off into 5 hours of uninterrupted sleep.
But it's not going to happen that easily, but it will start tonight. As I walk my tried little body up the stairs I can start to hear Kales cries, coming from the monitor that's on in my bedroom. I take a deep breath and enter his room. Patting his back and putting the pacifier back in and I slip out. This continues over the next hour. The whole house is filled with cries because there is a monitor on upstairs and downstairs.

Finally Kale drifts off into sleep again and I head to the bedroom where I find Kingston in the corner, head down and tail tucked...so scared he peeped all over the place. I guess apparently I should have informed him that we were doing this tonight, guess Kingston wasn't ready yet!